But having a tolerable night on
Thursday, I was a good deal better on Friday, and on Saturday got up, and
ate a little spoon-meat, and my feverishness seemed to be gone; and I was
so mended by evening, that I begged her indulgence in my closet, to be
left to myself; which she consented to, it being double-barred the day
before, and I assuring her, that all my contrivances, as she called them,
were at an end. But first she made me tell the whole story of my
enterprise; which I did very faithfully, knowing now that nothing could
stand me in any stead, or contribute to my safety and escape: And she
seemed full of wonder at my resolution; but told me frankly, that I
should have found it a hard matter to get quite off; for that she was
provided with a warrant from my master (who is a justice of peace in this
county as well as in the other) to get me apprehended, if I had got away,
on suspicion of wronging him, let me have been where I would.
O how deep-laid are the mischiefs designed to fall on my devoted head!--
Surely, surely, I cannot be worthy of all this contrivance! This too
well shews me the truth of what was hinted to me formerly at the other
house, that my master swore he would have me! O preserve me, Heaven!
from being his, in his own wicked sense of the adjuration!
I must add, that now the woman sees me pick up so fast, she uses me
worse, and has abridged me of paper, all but one sheet, which I am to
shew her, written or unwritten, on demand: and has reduced me to one pen:
yet my hidden stores stand me in stead.
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