Jewkes railed at me particularly. Indeed I would have sat up
all night, for fear, if she would have let me. For I had but very little
rest that night, apprehending this woman would let my master in. She did
nothing but praise him, and blame me: but I answered her as little as I
could.
He has Sir Simon Tell-tale, alias Darnford, to dine with him to-day,
whose family sent to welcome him into the country; and it seems the old
knight wants to see me; so I suppose I shall be sent for, as Samson was,
to make sport for him.--Here I am, and must bear it all!
Twelve o'clock, Saturday noon.
Just now he has sent me up, by Mrs. Jewkes, the following proposals. So
here are the honourable intentions all at once laid open. They are, my
dear parents, to make me a vile kept mistress: which, I hope, I shall
always detest the thoughts of. But you'll see how they are accommodated
to what I should have most desired, could I have honestly promoted it,
your welfare and happiness. I have answered them, as I am sure you'll
approve; and I am prepared for the worst: For though I fear there will be
nothing omitted to ruin me, and though my poor strength will not be able
to defend me, yet I will be innocent of crime in my intention, and in the
sight of God; and to him leave the avenging of all my wrongs, time and
manner.
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