O forgive your poor daughter!--I am sorry to find this trial so sore upon
me; and that all the weakness of my weak sex, and tender years, who never
before knew what it was to be so touched, is come upon me, and too mighty
to be withstood by me.--But time, prayer, and resignation to God's will,
and the benefits of your good lessons, and examples, I hope, will enable
me to get over this so heavy a trial.
O my treacherous, treacherous heart! to serve me thus! and give no notice
to me of the mischiefs thou wast about to bring upon me!--But thus
foolishly to give thyself up to the proud invader, without ever
consulting thy poor mistress in the least! But thy punishment will be
the first and the greatest; and well deservest thou to smart, O
perfidious traitor! for giving up so weakly thy whole self, before a
summons came; and to one, too, who had used me so hardly; and when,
likewise, thou hadst so well maintained thy post against the most violent
and avowed, and, therefore, as I thought, more dangerous attacks!
After all, I must either not shew you this my weakness, or tear it out of
my writing. Memorandum: to consider of this, when I get home.
Monday morning, eleven o'clock.
We are just come in here, to the inn kept by Mrs.
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